Capture Your Grief Day 1: Sunrise

As I woke this morning,
I immediately peaked out my window and was met with a dark haunting sky.
I knew the sun would be rising soon and I was thankful to have a moment to sit and reflect on the month of October and what it means to all the other loss mothers and families I share a connection with. How this month would be filled with emotional moments of grief as we remember our babies who left this earth to soon.
As the light started to break through the darkness, I realized it was cloudy and overcast.
Not at all what I pictured when I thought of a beautiful sunrise to start this healing journey with.
I took a photo anyways.

I so wanted to capture the sun breaking through the trees in the backyard of the home we bought while I was pregnant with Peyton.
The clouds were too thick and I'm no photographer so I had no idea how to make this image any prettier.

But you know what...

Even on the cloudiest days the sun still rises.
Life will keep moving.
Thinking back on days I didn't care if the sun ever rose again...
how desperately I wished I could pull the covers over my head and never leave my bed.
They were cloudy. Almost a haze.
Somehow I did it though,  I broke through those cloudy moments of grief and despair and
learned to find light and happiness again.
It's been a slow journey and I still have hard moments, days even.
But in those moments I know that no matter what
I will see light through the clouds and the sun will shine down on me once again.