This is me Before...
Before I would be thrown into an emotional grief journey that would push me further than I ever imagined.
Yes, I knew babies died, but I was naive.
I heard the stories, but I never thought it would happen to me.
I was young, healthy, had wonderful (and still do) husband.
I was glowing with excitement, ready to bring my precious baby girl into the world.
I would laugh boldly.
Sing at the top of my lungs.
I wasn't afraid of much. Especially not death.
I had never been faced with any real hardships.
I had never questioned my faith.
I miss that carefree girl with the sparkle in her eyes.
I miss the feeling of easiness.
My heart grew a hole the day my daughter and it can't be completely filled again on this Earth.
I see my life in two separate times now.
I am not that person in this photo anymore and I won't ever be her again.
I may have lost some sparkle but I have gained so much,
such courage and purpose.
...And I'm okay with this most days.
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